Sloppy Swish

Happy Friday 

Everyone please do this dance this weekend! 

Its so GROSS that I LOOOOVE it! 

Ornaments

Tomorrow is December 1st!   WHOA!

I saw these beautiful sparkled pine cones on crate and barrel's site this morning and really wanted to make them myself. Then, I remembered that I lived in Brooklyn and finding anything pine cones would be very difficult. So, now I will see if I can trash in the neighborhood that looks cool enough to SPARKLE. I'll let you know what I find and IF I really do this. I really hate buying silly ornaments that have no meaning. Sparkle trash seems much more fun anyways.

If anyone would like to send me real Christmas Ornaments, let me know. :)

Friday Morning

Today is my last morning home before I go back to work on Monday. I am VERY much looking forward to returning to work. I have used the last month to heal, mostly as well as get my emotional well being in check. Its been a needed break, but, I can honestly say I'm ready to return to "life".

I have loved sleeping in and hanging out with my Mack Man though!

Today I made an egg white omlete and I'm obsessed with Kale Chips right now. I haven't tried the plain yet because it still creeps me out... but, baby steps. Being on a diet around Holiday season isn't one of the brighter ideas but, I'm sick of this extra baby weight on me. I need to get in shape and healthy now! (I can still drink red wine though, right? Oh and its the SEC Championship on Saturday, crap! That means BEERS!) I'll do my best.

"Reality and Dreams"

Have you seen this portfolio yet? 

The photos are incredible and makes me want to grab my toe shoes and go back to ballet class.

click here to see slideshow

photo credit: http://www.henryleutwyler.com/

Photos of My Stroll

Its a gorgeous clear day in NYC today and when its nice, I love taking walks and taking pictures around my neighborhood. Here are some of my favorites!

OK!

little vanilla latte (hold the sugar) from Sweetleaf.

spray paint jellyfish

new stencil work up on 6th St.

I love the Wythe Hotel

One Month

Today was a hard one. Today our little girl would have 1 month old and it was rainy and nasty out. It should have been a lot harder, but, I met a friend for a wonderful lunch and spoke with her about our story. It was the first time I've talked out loud and I think I did pretty well. I will say its gotten a bit easier, or maybe its that more time has passed so I'm healing. I miss her, but, I'm moving into a more positive mind-set. I still ask "why" over and over in my head... but, I'm accepting and looking forward to the future. She'll never be replaced, only loved and will have siblings who can celebrate her too!

We have received so many lovely cards and some friends have sent me photos of us to lift spirits and I have to admit, it helps. Family and friends are really the only things that can get you through hard times... cherish these relationships.

I don't plan on speaking about this on our blog anymore. I wanted to mention this milestone so she had one. I'm proud of her no matter what and I'm proud of Scottie and I for being one hell of a strong loving couple. We love our friends and family so much... this holiday season will be enjoyed so much! 

and I'm thankful for this ridiculous face. I mean, how can you not just LAUGH at this guy?

Smiles For San Francisco

I looooooooooooooove you, San Francisco!

We had a fantastic time visiting family in the gorgeous area this Thanksgiving. It was filled with drinking, eating, visiting, football, family time and lots of laughter and smiles. It was just what the east coast Kirby's needed. Just check out our photos of the incredibly scenic area. Its enough to lift anyone's spirits.

Hmmmm, perhaps I'll move there next. It HAS almost been a year in this city. ;)

Golden Gate Park at 7am has the most perfect light

My life and love

Marin County Fog

No filter needed for this view

Thanksgiving Day Hike at Tennessee Valley Hike in Marin

Golden Gate love

Me and My nephew George

Brothers Kirby being dudes

Packing with Mack

Hi!
We're heading to San Francisco this evening for Thanksgiving! Mack is going to miss me sooooooooo much (and I will miss him) but, I have my sister looking after him. She will undoubtedly over-feed him and spoil him rotten. I'm kinda OK with that. :) I'm looking forward to heading back to the west coast. I haven't been back in about 2 years! I'll be sure to take lots and lots of pictures of our time out there. After packing, I realize I wear nothing but black. Damn you NYC!!

We're also listening to Gary Clark Jr's "Give it Up Now" 

Beautiful NYC Day

I had a great morning today just walking around NYC.

I took the L to the F and then walked down 5th Ave to try to find an outfit for Thanksgiving. We are headed to San Francisco tomorrow for the holiday -- can't wait!

Not sure I scored on the outfit, but, it was such a stunning day out, I was happy to enjoy the sites. I even had my loveboat (yes, that's what I call him) surprise me walking around. I love seeing him, so I was happy to walk around a bit with him. The Christmas decorations are being set up in NYC, I will photograph them next week to show you. But, for now, here are some pics from my afternoon stroll.

Not sure how I left this little crazy eyed psycho.

last few days of fall here in Brooklyn

subway collection

shoe stylin'. If you want rad shoes, come visit me... I'll take you to some SWEET spots

subway'ing on off hours is kinda relaxing. Check out that empty staircase... I took my time and wasn't rushed, it was lovely.

random brooklyn house up the street. Ive seen a lot of bands take photos in front of this.

Its officially the holidays. Chestnuts were roasting on 5th Ave.

I rushed home to see this little monster who REFUSED to walk. 

A Brooklyn Craft Fair

The un-impressed Mack is pissed it's Monday too.

This weekend I went to the Renegade Craft Fair here in Williamsburg Brooklyn. It was actually really well put together and the artists were great! I ended up getting a couple things for family for Christmas and also a great print for our apartment. I also stared at these deserts below for a good 20 minutes before finally forcing myself to leave with out any. Seriously difficult.

i have lived in everyone of those cities

my two favorite men.

Brooklyn is embracing a lot of chalk recently. 

Furry Heart Band-aide

Meet Mack Attack! 

He has helped mend our hearts after the loss of our daughter three weeks ago. In a time where I never thought I would naturally smile again, this little bugger has made it happen. My mom bought him for us and we are in love. He's just so FUNNY looking and has a personality to match. He is also very mellow and loves to just chill on the couch as well -- SCORE!

Its funny how a little furry face can warm your heart.
I'm sorry if I post a million pictures of him now.
You're just gonna have to deal with it. :)
Mack Attack is part rabbit, frog, dog, pig, stoner and freak. Perfect combo for a Kirbo pet.

HATS! HATS! HATS!

I LOOOOOOVE wearing hats... it is my most favorite part of fall and winter. I have an entire basket full of them and even huzbo loves wearing a beanie from time to time. Although, I tend to get mad when he borrows mine because he stretches them out!

Here are some of my favorites from my basket

Here are some of the ones that I LOVE from the internet not yet in my basket:

in red

Brrrr Hat

Pink Stripes

Grey Merino Hat

Ribbed Bloom Hat

See any out there that I missed or need?

Reason #9347 To Love Brooklyn

Free AND walking distance from my little apartment. 

I am there.

Oh NYC!

You like to keep things interesting with the weather don't you?

Last week the awful Hurricane and now a blizzard!

Thanks for keeping me distracted.

Hard Read

(It happened. It's part of our lives and while we're heart broken, WE are not broken.)


39 week sonogram peek before she was to be born in two days.
We arrived at the Dr's office full of excitment and awaiting details.
Things changed.
We were told, "I'm Sorry". 
No Heartbeat.

No reason. Heart. Breaking.

We quietly gathered our things and received hugs from strangers.
Not comprehending. 
We sat in a daze while Dr's tried to speak to us.
No comprehending. 
Numb.

A cab drove us to the hospital.
Nurses surrounded us with sad looks and took us to our room.
Our families were called. Our families showed up. Our families were in shock.
I delivered her normally two days later.
The room was silent when we finished.

I was glowing seeing her, even though she was not breathing.

She was gorgeous, everything I ever wanted and the best thing ive ever done.
7 pounds 13oz, 21 inches of perfection.
They say cord, but, we may never know.
We love her, we miss her, we yearn for her... we will not forget her.

Dylan Mae Kirby.

We're meant to be parents and a family.  We are not discouraged to try again. We made one perfect little girl, we're determined to do it again.

Thank you for all the prayers and thoughts through this very sad time. We feel it.